13th Nov 2017 - 22 weeks

you are my sunshine, 

my only sunshine,

you make me happy,

when skies are grey,

you never know dear,

how much i love you,

so please dont take my arian away. 

dear Arian,

today  is wednesday, on monday i went to govt's moms clinic and the result was pretty frustrating, despite the service and advice by the nurses and doctor are pretty satisfying. my hemoglobin level drops again, 9.7, 10.2, 9.5, 8.9 and last 2 days it was 8.5. 

Arian, it took a lot of blood to form you and grow you well, and you are taking a lot from me. remember this, carrying you wasnt easy, it was  and is a tough challenging journey, but having you inside me is amazing. super amazing and you are such a blessing.

you turned 22 weeks, meaning your face is starting to form, your lips, eyelids, eyebrows and many more. wonder whom look will you be like, mom or pops. tak kisahlah. janji anak mummy sihat walafiat.

so, since my hb is going down down down, im gonna have to repeat the appointment every 2 weeks. 

doakan mummy kuat utk arian, and arian kena kuat utk mummy juga okay.

love you son, till we meet again.