17th October 2017 - 18 weeks

Assalamualaikum!

Hello Dear Love, today im writing again, well i skipped 2 weeks. couldn't find the inner peace and strength to write, despite thousands thought jumbling up in my mind.

I can still recall my last post, where i was so confident, dedicating this new version of blog and post to my beloved future daughter to be. and even called her Little Thea. Couldn't help myself from being attached to "Thea Jasmine", its a beautiful name. another type of flower, supporting her mom's name.

nonetheless, Allah the almighty shows, even you are a mother, and you have intuitions, he knows better of what is unknown to you and, hence giving you quite a surprise, and better for you. it turns out to be a bird for all i know.

we both laughed. hard. and deep. being happy as a parent to a first baby boy is one thing, but the main reason of the deep laughter was the fact that I, I! need to buy him a Macbook. i repeat, the macbook. its gonna cost me around what 5k? baik beli emas. Kah.

Nah, here is one of the super clear obvious and a showing off son to be.

Semoga anakku sihat walafiat, aktif dan cerdas, bijak, dan sempurna sifatnya. Semoga anak sulungku ini, menjadi anak yang soleh, yang bijak, mendengar kata, disenangi dan disayangi selalu. Semoga anakku ini, menjadi pelindung bagi agama dan keluarganya, pemimpin terbaik utk agama, dirinya dan keluarganya, dan menjadi contoh yang disayangi semuanya.

I love you, son.

takpelah walau mummy susah payah menghadap morning , all day sickness for you, sakit masuk keluar hospital, habis ribuan ringgit, gaduh dengan daddy siang dan malam (haha i hope your father doesnt read this), semua ni hanya untukmu, semoga anak mommy boleh bawak mummy and daddy ke syurga .

Much Love,

your emotional, crazy and beautiful mom

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